i don’t know how to say this, but i feel like i love you and hate you at the same time.
Y.O.U are the only one that is giving me hard times.
and Y.O.U can also make me feel special.
Y.O.U make me think i am not good enough or the “perfect” size.
Y.O.U also think that you know more people than me or others.
Y.O.U think you are SO special, well yes i know everyone has their own “special” thing, but. Y.O.U overthink yourself.
Y.O.U think you’re better than anyone else in this world, and think that Y.O.U know how to “accept” yourself.
Y.O.U make people feel bad. and Y.O.U don’t know that you are.
but Y.O.U are “sometimes” nice.
..Y.O.U know me.
and Y.O.U make me feel like i’m a part of something better.
i don’t know how i’ll say this in front of you. i’ll feel like i’ve done something wrong or hurt Y.O.U. Y.O.U make me feel like im a part of something. but sometimes, Y.O.U make me feel like im the only one in the world left to suffer. i do love Y.O.U, but i feel like Y.O.U hate me and love me at the same time. before Y.O.U hated me and say that Y.O.U don’t. i want Y.O.U to know how it feels like when i was that girl who was not with everyone else and was left out and got criticized everyday. i was that girl. now Y.O.U try it. see what it feels like.
i may not have the best shape, size, or look. but Y.O.U have to see and try what it had been like for the past few years for me. Y.O.U said you were gonna be there for me and i trusted you. but Y.O.U were not. it was just lies. Y.O.U took advantage. and now Y.O.U have to watch out. i may know that this is wrong, wrong to say that i’m getting everything wrong and that i’m too sensitive. yes, i am sensitive. i admit. and i don’t really give a crap about that. i’ve should have gotten over this a long time ago. but i didn’t i instead kept on trusting you. you broke my promises.
people change, things change around our lives. so now, it’s my time to shine. because baby watch out. you don’t know what’s comin’. i’ve overcome my fears, and know myself now. i’ve should have gotten over this a long time ago. but i didn’t i instead kept on trusting you. and if you are reading this. think of the things you’ve done to me in the past.
thanks, it was that i had someone i could trust, even though i should have not trusted you. still, thanks. i’m not saying that we shouldn’t be friends. i’m saying that i’ve overcome the things that i’ve been through with you and is fine if you want to start over. i’ve you don’t, we can be friends, i guess. this is 5 words for you: i got heart-broken. period.
..but that heart can be put together again, with your bandages.